Life After She Left

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Tue, 27 Nov 2012 10:54:21 -0800

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Thu, 06 Sep 2012 20:10:55 -0700

absence

Wed, 15 Aug 2012 23:47:38 -0700

yeah, i’ve been gone FOREVER. I’ve been busy at work and being in love.

by the way, does anyone want to know what happens in True Blood? it was a TV show I’ve been working on non-stop.

people probably don’t care, lol, I only just started watching it because I worked on it, but apparently lots of people LOVE it…

old feelings

Wed, 15 Aug 2012 23:46:01 -0700

its been MONTHS since i’ve been on my tumblr and i remember when I used to scroll through I used to think about my ex. Everything reminded me of her. but I don’t feel anything anymore. I just look at them and say, “ahh thats a good quote,” or “wow, that’s so true.” Instead of thinking, “I miss her,” or “I was an idiot to lose her.” I do think of her from time to time, and at first I think I miss her, but when I really think about it, I’m glad its over. It was something I had to do in my life and now I can live and say that I’ve done it.

My life is different now and I think I like it… I’m a whole person again.

true story

Wed, 15 Aug 2012 23:36:34 -0700

true story

swag

Sat, 16 Jun 2012 14:55:30 -0700

is it just me or does the word “swag” confuse anyone else?

I thought SWAG stood for “stuff we all get” as in the free giveaway crap they throw at you like flyers or hats or t-shirts.

now, “swagger” is something like the way someone carries themselves, their “jua de vive”, their personality, their magnetism or their electricity.

can’t help but feel a little annoyed seeing this… maybe not as annoyed as when i see “yolo” but luckily none of my friends ever post that…

not a big deal i guess, just confusing and maybe a little annoying…

new relationship

Sat, 02 Jun 2012 20:48:29 -0700

I’ve got to say that just being in this new relationship… its just so great to be in a full, loving, fresh relationship. we care for each other so much. Its just so “uhm… duhh you’re the person I’m going to spend the rest of my life with.”

feeling the grind

Sat, 02 Jun 2012 20:46:02 -0700

such a strange thing, my friend (of whom is my supervisor) invited me to go with him to see Battleship spontaneously last night. We had a quick bite to eat before and we talked about work. It was light and humorous, but then after the movie I got home and talked to my girlfriend and I just felt so bummed out about what I’m doing for a living now. I just get very little recognition and very little benefit from it; other than a paycheck every two weeks (not even a great pay check: barely a living wage).

On my drive in I can’t help but see all the 5 series BMWs and the E class Mercedes Benzes and just feel like I’mNEVERgoing to get there =( I’ve only been working in this field for just over two years and though I seem to be picking up it pretty well (there’s hardly anything that they give me that I can’t solve on my own), I just can’t see myself excelling more than some of the stronger guys or the guys that have been around longer; I’m feeling a little stuck.

I do have a little glint of hope because of this new company that my brother-in-law is getting involved with and I would be a senior producer and create marketing materials and campaigns for them over the course of months… and get paid just under $200k a year… a far cry from my miserable $56,000 right now.

time to rename this blog

Mon, 28 May 2012 00:40:24 -0700

to “lifenowthatimawesome” as in Life, Now that I’m Awesome

not saying that I’m awesome, but I’ve had a chance to rebuild my confidence and my self esteem. It was violently stolen from me when my last girlfriend of over four years absolutely broke my heart. I can say that I was lucky that I had great friends, family and that I was taught well enough that I could survive it and eventually I wanted to survive move on and realize that I am an awesome person. I have what it takes to make a woman happy and I always have, I was just very unlucky in who I ended up with the last time around.

Its hard for me to accept a compliment IRL let alone declare that I am awesome, but its just a personal thing that helps me. I don’t mean this in a way that suggests I’m more important or better than anyone else out there, its just … I’ve come a long way, I have a lot to offer and I am actually a good person

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Sat, 26 May 2012 20:53:18 -0700

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Sat, 26 May 2012 13:17:41 -0700

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I shouldn’t be alive unless it was for a reason. I’m not crazy, Pepper. I just finally know what I have to do. And I know in my heart that it’s right.

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Sat, 26 May 2012 13:03:21 -0700

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Tue, 22 May 2012 07:30:57 -0700

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If you’re worried about people noticing, trust me, they will.

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Tue, 22 May 2012 07:30:40 -0700

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Tue, 22 May 2012 07:30:36 -0700

crazy month!

Mon, 14 May 2012 22:08:06 -0700

alright, holy cow its been a crazy crazy month of April. I was laid off at the end of March in a hurry because the company i was working for lost a lot of work, so they laid off everyone. I started a new job working on a tv pilot and holy crap. I was personally doing 12 hour days and I was always, “the guy who left work early.” it was crazy! I managed to get through it without screaming at anyone, and while keeping my reputation in tact. They even kept me on to help out with another pilot that wasn’t doing as well. Once that was just about wrapped up I was invited to work on another project that has been going for a year, True Blood. Its been interesting, working with a whole new group of people but they’re pretty cool guys. They don’t seem like they’re the most skilled group of people, but its all fine and cool. So far they’ve extended my stay for two weeks. Longer than my peers of whom started with me back in April.

I was pretty damn busy through the whole time. I didn’t have any time for myself and I was just scrambling every day to make someone happy, even “natalie.” There were even moments where I was just working so much that I felt like I was just on my own, and not in a relationship and that the relationship wasn’t making me happy.

I’ve had a whole weekend off to just spend by myself here at home and just do nothing. It was just what the doctor ordered. Not only do i just feel rested and rejuvenated I realized that I was getting out of balance between work and my personal life. It happens to people every day and they make decisions during that time that really make them unhappy in the end. I never wanted to end the relationship, but I did feel labored at times when she was unhappy, but I was just too exhausted to help her. I was just too exhausted, mentally, to just enjoy time with her and just enjoy being in love.

i looked up how my ex was doing this weekend. Just to see if her and that guy were still together, and yes, they are. They’re facebook public (as I am with my girlfriend, now). I guess its good that she didn’t throw away our relationship for a little fling. I actually got pretty scared when I saw that he had come out to LA to visit her for a few days or something and he was in this city with her and he went to this Drum thing with her that I was highly contemplating going to with “natalie.” I sort of had a mini freak out but i dunno, i dont know how i’d handle it. but nonetheless I’m glad we didn’t run into each other and I really hope we don’t ever run into each other. I wish she would just move to arizona like she originally planned. I honestly still am mad at her… i kind of hate her and i wish she just ceased to exist. Maybe i’d settle on her moving to Arizona and never coming back.

Anyway, natalie and I are very serious. she is the one for me and I have no doubt about it. After seeing my ex’s posts and her activities, I definitely feel relieved and that I’ve dodged a bullet. But I guess most importantly, I dont feel like I’ve avoided anything, but I feel like I am right where I need to be. I want to make natalie my wife and I’d marry her tomorrow, seriously. but I’m trying to take the steps and have her meet my closest friends because even though she’s met my family I feel like my friends are more my family than my real family. They really love me and care for me and just accept me for exactly who I am. My family is very religious and I am not, so they’re constantly trying to convince me to go to church, or to pray or something, but its just not who I am now.

I’ve started thinking about who would be in my wedding. I know four guys for sure. They are really my “brothers” - Brian, Fernando, Pete and Brent. I think that’s a solid four guys that I can honestly say that I “love” - they will always look out for me and they care.

i’ve got money already saved for a ring, but not a lot for the wedding, really. I’ve been starting to think about who i’d invite and how i’d do the reception and really, where the wedding would be. I think I’d have it here in SoCal but I’d like to do it in sight of the water… that could be pricey. but I’d want people to not have to travel all around. I’ll have to start researching.

i’m pretty lucky to have such an amazing woman (yes, woman) in my life. I’m confident in our relationship. she makes me better. she has her life put together. she is the better part of me.

i dont miss my ex

Fri, 11 May 2012 21:54:14 -0700

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Sat, 05 May 2012 10:51:37 -0700

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